Posted by blamethebanjo on Thursday, August 7, 2008
I just got home from a very positive doctors visit. Everything is under control and I feel better than I have in a long while. My doctor mentioned I looked younger and like a weight was lifted off me. I doubt the looking younger part but there does seem to be a weight lifted from my shoulders.
Some of it is due to the conscience effort on my part to not allow the things I have no control over to influence my attitude and mood. I was bad about watching the news and letting my blood pressure rise everytime gasoline goes up another ten cents a gallon.
I still think it is uncalled for but I am not going to drive myself batty over those things. I am on a mission. Like the ad says "An Army Of One" The only one who I have control over. The one person I can make sure does the right thing as much as possible, to the best of my ability. I can control how I treat others and how I react to the way I am treated.
I have mentioned before that being in pain can be a negative power that pushes you and feeds the fire of irritability. That is no news to anyone but left unchecked it can become a bad habit. Bad habits eventually take on a life of their own until they become part of our makeup,our personality.
I will try to be aware of my actions and reactions alike. Pain might be a constant companion but I don't have to let it take over and change the person I know I can be. I made a choice to quit using a high powered pain medication because of the adverse effects on body and mind. With this came increased levels of pain making me question my decision. So I walk. In spite of the hurting. To laugh in the face of the discomfort. Pain won't own me or define who I am. God willing.
14 comments on “Illness Won't Define Me...”
twayneking Says:
Thursday, August 7, 2008 @1:21:25 PM
Good for you. Being positive helps. The body has tremendous recuperative powers.
Our prayers go with you Darrell.
Tom
GSCarson Says:
Thursday, August 7, 2008 @2:34:01 PM
Darrell, I've read many of your posts and blogs, both past and present. I sense a change and real peace and positive spirit about you, and that you're made real strides in becoming at peace with yourself, those around you and the world at large. Press on!
All the best,
Glenn C.
blamethebanjo Says:
Thursday, August 7, 2008 @4:29:46 PM
Thanks so much to both of you for writing. I appreciate it more than you know.
kcjc69 Says:
Thursday, August 7, 2008 @6:18:27 PM
I'm in agreement Darrell, changes for the positive. Peace within reinforces that old addage, "You can't keep a good man down".
Jim
ElGringorio Says:
Friday, August 8, 2008 @11:04:49 AM
Darrell, As you and I have just become acquainted online, I was not aware that you had some health problems that caused some reoccurring pain. I must say that I have been impressed with your positive attitude, so evident in the blogs that I have read. So I am optimistic about your prognosis, whatever your condition. Please know that I am not asking or trying to pry into your business. I do want to say that you are a good guy.
joemac Says:
Friday, August 8, 2008 @12:06:59 PM
Thinking of you Darrell, i live in constant pain with both legs, we are strong enemies, the leg pain and I...but the sucker has,nt beat me yet..be strong...Joe
blamethebanjo Says:
Friday, August 8, 2008 @1:00:58 PM
Thanks Joe, I wish you the absolute best my friend.
blamethebanjo Says:
Friday, August 8, 2008 @1:02:15 PM
Jim and fretless, Thank you so much for the support.
chuckles50 Says:
Saturday, August 9, 2008 @7:19:13 AM
Truer words were never spoken. Darrell, you have a wonderful ability to write about life's experiences without sounding self pitying or self righteous. The daily news can easily be a source of stress and angst which affects our mental/physical health. But as you have suggested, we can only control ourselves and then spread the sunshine to others. So thanx for spreading some sunshine!
blamethebanjo Says:
Saturday, August 9, 2008 @10:13:00 AM
Thank you so much, Chuck. The world is such a beautiful place full of wonders. I feel so fortunate to be part of it. Watching the opening ceremonies of the Olympics in China reminds me of the spectacular art people can produce when their minds are set as one. All of them striving for a positive message. While like most countries China has many problems, we have seen what is possible with a good work and attitude from them.
Shorty Says:
Thursday, August 14, 2008 @8:49:53 AM
Hey My FRIEND, I have been Suffering with Pain for some years now, I have Spinal Arthritis and PHN an ongoing pain from Shingles a few Years ago, I have found that the More Positive I keep Myself the Better I am, I started a little Program on my own about 9 weeks ago I started walking and Praying in the very early morning Hours about 6 AM while it is cool and Quiet, I had gained a lot of weight I did not need, and now I have been feeling a lot better, and have lost 17 Pounds, and you are in those Prayers every day !! I find that GOD gives me the Strength I need to keep going, i'm only 67 so I have a long way to go yet ! it's OK to share your Pain and feelings with FRIENDS ! Love to you and Yours !
blamethebanjo Says:
Thursday, August 14, 2008 @5:16:25 PM
You are a great and cherished friend and always supportive of me. I continue to appreciate you more and more.
Darrell.
Old git Says:
Sunday, August 24, 2008 @5:11:53 PM
All the very best wishes to you in your battle Darrell. Pain is a dog to deal with and constantly demands our attention. Its one of the few habits that we didn't invite, don't want and cant get rid of. But most of the time we don't know what the hell to do because of the distraction it causes. Most drugs have unwanted side effects, so everything is a trade off. All people are strong in different ways, but most don't have to prove it. We do, to ourselves. May God give you all the strength you need, and a bit more for good luck.
blamethebanjo Says:
Sunday, August 24, 2008 @6:04:10 PM
You are so right. It is hard to concentrate sometimes because as hard as you might try it gets your attention. That is one of the hardest parts.
You must sign into your myHangout account before you can post comments.
