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Posted by blamethebanjo on Wednesday, July 23, 2008

People must think we are crazy to be sitting on this park bench in the rain like this. It is so foggy I can barely make out the forms of the few who are walking about. They must think both of us are a bit off our rockers. " Actually you are the only one they notice, I think I overheard some really negative comments directed at you,my friend." You call me your friend and yet all you ever do is make me feel worse than I already feel. " Don't blame me for your situation.You deserve everything you get.You know that. Face it , you are a weak,stupid undiserable wretch who nobody likes."

But I have family and friends who care about me. " Ha! Where are they? You never see anyone do you?" I never go around anybody because you make me feel inadequate. " You are determined to blame me for the fact that you are a hopeless cry baby sitting around wanting pity and attention. Pull yourself up by the bootstraps and be a man. Oh, I forgot you are too wimpy to do that which any two year old could do easily." Will you please stop? " Listen, if I were you I would give them the payback they deserve. It would be easier if you were gone. Then they will be sorry! Imagine everyone crying and wishing they had treated you better. Wouldn't that be great?"

I just want to be happy sometime. I know I can't be happy all the time but if this rain and fog would let up a little...." Oh. blame the weather. That is just like you to blame anything but yourself. You are disgusting!" Someone is walking toward us. I have never seen such a glow of happiness on ... " Don't pay any attention to this fake! He will just try to sell you some song and dance... I can't stand to look directly at Him, hurts my eyes!" But the atmosphere around Him is clear and sunny... hey, where did you go?

Sir, did you see where my friend went? I have known him for years and didn't even ask his name. I can't believe he ran off like this. " He was never your friend. He only wanted to keep you away from the ones you love. He tried to keep you hidden in darkness and confused. You can see the Light is burning the fog away. He returned to where he came from. His name was Depression."

7 comments on “A Conversation.”

Kester71 Says:
Wednesday, July 23, 2008 @9:42:11 AM

Depression is emptyness. Sit down, relax and close your eyes. Make a little plan of where you want to go and start moving towards it. Nothing in life is perfect. All the winners in the world were just lucky. Slowly undeterred move towards where you want to be, and keep going.

blamethebanjo Says:
Wednesday, July 23, 2008 @10:28:24 AM

Very true, I am no longer fighting it as I was before. For the most part I am out of the woods myself. I hope by talking about it someone else will find help and feel it isn't a shame . It is no reflection on the sufferer ,not their fault and they can't just snap out of it. Thanks for writing. Your words are very true. I feel I am indeed moving forward.

deleted-member-27165 Says:
Wednesday, July 23, 2008 @1:21:07 PM

I've never really spoke of it except for with some very close loved ones,but I fourht depression of a form for mst of my life.When I was 16 I met and married at the age of 17 the girl I thought would never let me down then in late 01 she checked out on me then the real pain began.With the grace of GOD and a wonderfull new wife GOD gave me almost five years ago 5 wonderfull daughters thet know how to pray I beat it. What I'm getting at is noone can fight depression on their own everyone needs help and NO IT IS NOT YOUR FALT !!! my prayers go daily often even by the minute for those who live in darkness. may GOD have mercy on us.

deleted-member-27165 Says:
Wednesday, July 23, 2008 @1:21:44 PM

FAULT oops LOL

blamethebanjo Says:
Wednesday, July 23, 2008 @2:52:09 PM

Thanks for sharing that. There are a lot of people fighting alone and that is sad. Keeping you alone is one of the tricks depression uses. Making you think it is your fault is another.