Posted by blamethebanjo on Saturday, August 20, 2011
I was looking through some older posts and wondering about what some of my old friends here were up to. Any of you who know me know that I have not been around here very often for a very long time. That is great for some who didn't like me. The ones who do, or did like me make up for any of that.
I read about Gibson Gangsta being locked out for eternity and the demise of the Banjo Mafia (originally the Gibson Mafia) . And I felt somewhat responsible for some of the mess. You see the Gibson Mafia was my idea jokingly poking fun at the many members who would throw a fit when I said anything good about Gibson. Tomcat made it a reality. Soon I was too vile even for those guys and was locked out of there.
I made a lot of mistakes and got locked out more than once. Threatened many more times. I keep a cooler head and low profile now. Almost gone but not yet. Reading through all the concern over GG I couldn't help finding myself wondering, thinking about how so many had come to his defense and not so much mine.
I have to think it is because I am not as likable as GG or maybe even Costello. I was once well liked. When I was fresh out of cancer surgery many here came to my rescue and sent me and Cathy their hard earned money so that we would be able to keep a roof over our heads. They once asked me not to name them but if they change their minds I will. I love those people.
I had a big ranting fit for a while about something I didn't know a thing about, Recording King banjoes. Made some enemies one of who was Mr. Greg Rich. I asked him to forgive an ignorant old guy and we have been friends ever since. He even offered to take me to a big Bluegrass event because he knew I couldn't afford it. That says a lot about Greg. I love the guy and I would love to have one of his banjoes someday.
I am too old and sick to go on a tour to win friends and increase my likability at this point but I still love The Hangout because of the people. I came for the banjo but I love the people more. It is close though.
Saturday, August 20, 2011 @4:56:49 AM
Well Darrell, its good to hear from you, and you aint the only guy who's ever made mistakes brother, you keep safe, Joe Mac.
Saturday, August 20, 2011 @8:05:05 AM
Darrell, I don't think our paths have crossed until today, but I am glad they have now. I have a geat respect for those that look inside themselves and are man or woman enough to put the real person out there in front of us all. You see, as part of society, we have been conditioned to judge one another and now you have once again offered us something to be judgemental about.
I hope most will sort my message out and realize that I am not cirtisizing anyone, but sharing my thoughts about what you have shared. Many cannot do what you have done, they will live their entire lives knowing, inside themselves, that they maybe wish they had done something different or said something in a different way, yet they will die without doing so. I guess it is our pride that surely gets in the way of improving ourselves over time, but I just want to say thank you for what you have done here and I assure you it will bring you happiness and peace that some will never know.
Saturday, August 20, 2011 @8:05:56 AM
Thanks Joe. I love you man.
Saturday, August 20, 2011 @8:17:14 AM
dgill, I owe thanks to you sir because I can't think of anything sadder than not being forgiven or given another chance when someone is truly sincere. I know I still have a lot of good friends here. Like an old hermit I have hidden myself from people I care about making sure I don't hurt them or anger them again.
I was touched so much by Greg's actions a couple of years back that he has no idea. I had been mean to him just because someone I knew was being that way. Like a little school brat. I love Greg and have never met him in person. Thank you for writing. I count this as another act of kindness. God bless you.
Saturday, August 20, 2011 @12:00:44 PM
I to have never crossed paths with you but I agree it takes a better man to admit in his wrong doings and ask for forgivness. Now it takes even a bigger man to forgive someone life is to short to live with regrets. I would be honered to have you on my friends list we are all here for the same reason in the longrun its our love of the banjo and the people who play it the draws us here. We have all made mistakes in our life but we got to move on and try to do better and never look back only forward.
Saturday, August 20, 2011 @12:09:25 PM
Thank you Rick. That is so true Rick. It is my honor to have you as a friend. I am very ashamed of some of the things I have allowed myself to do and thankful for the patience I was shown when I really didn't deserve it. God bless you.
Saturday, August 20, 2011 @6:51:07 PM
Not sure if our paths have crossed either, but welcome back!! Some really good people here that love to share their knowledge and encouragement. Those posed above are some of the best....
Saturday, August 20, 2011 @8:05:38 PM
Thanks Ratler. There surely are a whole lot of good people here. I'm thinking you must be one of them!
Sunday, August 21, 2011 @12:33:09 AM
its nice to read a post of honesty darrell dont forget
to forgive yourself and well come back
Sunday, August 21, 2011 @12:57:22 AM
Thanks Christy65. You know that is the hardest thing of all for me. I am hard on myself and things I have done bother me tremendously. I am trying to forgive myself. Maybe someday.
Sunday, August 21, 2011 @5:26:09 AM
believe me i know how you feel but it does get better my friend
Sunday, August 21, 2011 @6:37:59 AM
Thanks Christy65. Sometimes a decision made in a matter of seconds takes a lifetime to live down, I guess.
Tuesday, August 23, 2011 @6:58:09 PM
I have admired alot of things about you....Your singing, playing writing from your heart have touched me. Your personal stories are a true slice of life. You and Cathy are survivors in this battle of life and the odds have not been in your favor very much. Your heart is good in spite of what you think about yourself....Remember that! Your heart is good!
Tuesday, August 23, 2011 @7:14:36 PM
I thank you Phil for that. I have said all along how I feel about you and yours. Real people, honest and loving. There ain't just a whole lot more a person can add to that. The kind of folks that make me feel like a bucket running over. That choked up feeling most of us guys try not to show. I ain't too proud to admit it.
Tuesday, August 30, 2011 @7:21:45 PM
You're looking great..I hope you're feeling the same. Good to see you - K
Tuesday, August 30, 2011 @7:32:20 PM
Thanks, I see you are still lovely as ever! I hope your move is working out great for you!
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