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Days, Weeks or Months

Posted by Mimspicker on Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Days, Weeks, or Months?  How much time does a person really have to live, especially when the Doctors as using these terms.
 
This my be the most disturbing question I am having to deal with right now!


Sitting in the emergency room is never any fun. Especially on this date and at this time. (12/28)  The Doctor already new I was coming in and immediately went to work on me once I arrived. He was concerned for me and my health and my family. He has been walking through this ordeal with me the past (+/-) two years.


He had a simple observation…The measure of a man is not only how he lives life but also how he approaches death. He said I had succeeded in both. I hope to think so. I know I am approaching death. Some days it seems a little faster than others, but nevertheless, still getting there…. as we all are.


Many of you have been reading the blogs and would encourage to go back and read through them again…my hope is that the message was clear even though my typing has gotten somewhat a mess and It may sound as if I am rambling, but I hope to pull it all together.


Having cancer has not been easy. Living with it each day, the way it gradually takes over, little by little…it does sound somewhat creepy but that is what it does. So I’m here with stage IV cancer, what do I do next. My answer is to continue to live the life God gave to me and intended on me living.


My last blog ended December 23rd, just before Christmas. And I want to brig you up to date as what is going on. He news is really not good. I have several tumors that continue to grow. They do cause some extreme pain which, at times makes it difficult to function. Even the current treatment of chemo had no effect on the tumors. In fact they grew right up and over and chemo treatments I was having.


Unfortunately this has put me into another category. Hospice. What a great organization. They have transferred all my primary care to them and they have been great work with, doctors, nurses and health care aids, all there to help me! I know it sounds selfish, but I like having the extra care. They say there is no real time frame for Hospice, but the six month thing seems to be pretty accurate.


Am I down to my last few months…if my body is telling me anything, I say yes. The signs are there, I continue to lose weight, my appetite is poor. I also have lost a lot of muscle control and strength.

 
I have been blessed to continue on for another year. I should not have made it another year. However God saw a plan, to keep me here, tell the ones I love that I love them. A chance to say good bye when all else has failed, but mot of all share the good news of Jesus Christ. God cares for me so much he gave his Son for me.

That is just awesome. I continue to be blessed through this sickness. I know God is going to heal me, pay my bills and watch out for me and my family. How much more can a person ask for?
I know I’ll have another blog soon, at least I hope I will!!!!!

…. but maybe I can just add to this one just as easy. I spent the majority of the night last night (1/31/09) in the ER. I have fallen for the second time in a couple of weeks. Falls are one of the hazards and of course broken bones. Scans showed no fractures so that is a good thing. I’m just hurting all over. May take a couple of weeks of my behavin’ to get over this soreness


Until then I must still ponder the question….  I sure want to stick around as long as possible.
 
Warmest Regards,
 
Bill



40 comments on “Days, Weeks or Months”

rinemb Says:
Tuesday, February 3, 2009 @8:19:39 AM

Bill, You have been an inspiration to us.  From the first time you posted of your illness I have watched you grow and have seen of your many blessings.  (My Dad had the same cancer, as you)  I must say I only hope I can be as brave and positive and strong as you have been during this challenge.  I wish you peace and comfort.   Brad

Old Man Says:
Tuesday, February 3, 2009 @11:00:47 AM

Psalms 103:3  Who forgiveth all thine iniquities; who healeth all thy DISEASES;  God Bless Bill

Guy Says:
Tuesday, February 3, 2009 @12:42:14 PM

Bill, can I just thank you for taking the time to post your thoughts in what must be the most testing time of your life. We all need reminders of how precious life is, how important it is to make the most of our existence and to be thankful for every minute of every day. I hope that whatever time is left to you brings you some joy and that those around you gain from your wisdom.

Guy

Debbielee Says:
Tuesday, February 3, 2009 @12:55:43 PM

Thank you--In more ways than you will ever know. 

Ks_5-picker Says:
Tuesday, February 3, 2009 @3:49:41 PM

Thanks for posting Bill,God bless you.The one and only good thing I can see about cancer is that you have time to say your goodbyes.
  Take care brother.

pete hobbie Says:
Tuesday, February 3, 2009 @4:44:09 PM

God Bless you Bill,I just recently lost a great friend and mentor to cancer and continued to learn from him till he took his last breath. Keep teaching brother and we'll all learn from you.
Pete

KE Says:
Tuesday, February 3, 2009 @6:21:42 PM

Thank you, Bill. You are as much blessed as you are a blessing.

countrydirt Says:
Tuesday, February 3, 2009 @8:05:14 PM

God Bless you Bill.  You have blessed me.  Keep your eyes on the Prize!

Wayne in NJ Says:
Tuesday, February 3, 2009 @8:12:09 PM

Bill,

Here's an interesting quote a musician friend of mine shared with me about Steve McQueen:
"I get tired of the pain, but I keep hanging on because I'd like to change some people's lives with what I know of the Lord."
Steve McQueen (who became a Christian shortly before his death by cancer. And as in George Harrison's case, his conversion has been virtually ignored by the media even though he met with Billy Graham and claimed John 3:16 as his favorite verse.)

"For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish but have everlasting life." John 3:16

 

-Wayne

Furmans student Says:
Wednesday, February 4, 2009 @8:47:17 AM

Bill,

So many people take life for granted and miss out on a lot of things and don't realize it until it's too late.  Those of us that have been blessed to share in your trying times are certainly better off than before.  I know I am one of those people. 

Thank you Bill and God Bless you.

 

Monty

stringman711 Says:
Wednesday, February 4, 2009 @4:44:41 PM

Bill. You're in my prayers and I wish you all my best. I still believe in miracles! Take care my friend

Dana Cupp

Nancy Says:
Thursday, February 5, 2009 @12:22:00 PM

Stick around, Bill. You are my friend, and I don't want to lose even one friend. Good folks like you are rare and wonderful, and make our lives so much fuller for being there.

 

   Nancy

Mr. Quimby Says:
Thursday, February 5, 2009 @2:56:47 PM

They say "How do you know if your work here on Earth is done?  If you're still here, it's not."

Reading your blogs and posts this last year have been heartwrenching.  But He knows what He is doing.  And He has blessed you with time that others may not have had, because He has a plan.  And He will take you home when the time is right.

You were one of the first people here on the Hangout that I called friend.  It breaks my heart to know that your time is so limited.  And yet I know that my life is richer for having known you.  And I am certain that there are many, many others who can say the same.

As always, you are in my thoughts and prayers.

-Niffer

inniepie Says:
Thursday, February 5, 2009 @9:09:33 PM

I am thinking of you Bill and I send you all the prayers I can muster myself. You are my age and if anything I have learned over the past 2 years with my best friends getting ill is that every day is a gift and we never know what is around the corner. I hope you have many good times in the future and that your health improves, and regardless I wish you peace and happiness with your friends and family every day.

pstroud1 Says:
Friday, February 6, 2009 @8:50:38 AM

God bless you Bill.
Your an boost for a lot more folks than you know.
Take care friend.
There's power in the blood.
Paul

Mimosa Banjo Says:
Monday, February 9, 2009 @4:27:50 AM

Bill,  You truly are a great soul. We have had a lot of laughs here on the hangout and  I will miss your presence here on the hangout when it is your time to go but I am also a Christian and believe that you are going to a far better place than here.  I hope to meet you someday on that side.  My prayers continue to be with  you and your family.  God bless - Charis

royce Says:
Monday, February 9, 2009 @2:59:39 PM

Bill,

I'm thankful to have considered you a good friend.   I know we haven't known each other for that long but I knew you were a special person the first time I met you.   You've got Jesus in your heart and that is the best scenario you can be in right now.   I'm comforted in knowing that.   I appreciate your generosity when you made all that BBQ sauce for me and our band and even gave me the secret recipe.   I also wanted to say thanks for all the nice photos you took of me and our band and especially the nice framed photo of Little Roy and me.   You've been a very positive inspiration to many people on earth and there are few too many souls out there that have that quality.    I really feel blessed to have been acquainted with you.  

God Bless you and comfort you as well as your family.

Royce

backtothefuture Says:
Friday, February 13, 2009 @6:26:22 AM

Thinking of you, Bill.

God bless.

CurtissWhite Says:
Sunday, February 15, 2009 @8:42:55 PM

All my best to ya Bill. You' re a great man. The Lord loves you.

Curtiss

OneMusicLover Says:
Thursday, February 19, 2009 @7:46:42 PM

Thanks for logging in again today, Bill. It made me smile.  You're the bravest man I know and certainly an inspiration to many here on BHO.  The Lord is using you to reach so many of us and you're spreading His word in a very unique way.  You and your family are in our thoughts and prayers every day.

The Sweet Potato Casserole Fan aka Kaye

backtothefuture Says:
Friday, February 27, 2009 @4:13:24 PM

Bill...I will miss you, but not forget you.  Thank you for being a friend and an inspiration. 

God bless you. 

Dennis

KE Says:
Friday, February 27, 2009 @5:43:38 PM

Rest in peace, dear friend. I will remember the lessons you so graciously offered. Bless you for what you so generously gave to us. Ken

Jammer Says:
Friday, February 27, 2009 @5:52:38 PM

RIP Bill. I read your last blog on the day you wrote it and I always meant to make a comment. So, as long as the mods leave this up, I will now comment: I always admire your strength and how you faced your battle, and you were in my thoughts when I prayed even though I only knew you from this site. Good people are the same in cyber-space or in person. Bill was a good man from all that I know about him and I will always admire how he faced his battle and talked about it here in his blogs. He will be missed. My best to his family and friends-Terry

Nancy Says:
Friday, February 27, 2009 @6:21:37 PM

Bill, you won't be able to read this, but your family will. I will miss you, my friend. You have been an inspiration to us all. What courage you show. Thank you for being you.

Mr. Quimby Says:
Friday, February 27, 2009 @6:51:20 PM

RIP my friend.  You fought a good fight.  Thank you for being such a special person.

Banjowen Says:
Saturday, February 28, 2009 @2:18:38 AM

R I P Bill,.......May God reward you for your courage.

Richard Caudill Says:
Saturday, February 28, 2009 @5:20:45 AM

We will miss you Bill,  play a tune for me when my time comes.

Furmans student Says:
Saturday, February 28, 2009 @6:39:55 AM

Rest in Peace my Friend.  The reward is all yours now.                My thoughts are with your Family and I will miss your posts here on the hangout. 

banjerpickor Says:
Saturday, February 28, 2009 @8:51:07 AM

Tell my sister Mary i said hello and so long for now.

WaylonWillie Says:
Tuesday, March 3, 2009 @7:58:42 PM

Thanks for the moving blogs, you will be missed....

dikdik Says:
Tuesday, March 3, 2009 @9:02:10 PM

I've just read Bill's blog of February 3, an example of  faith, courage, and dignity.

royce Says:
Wednesday, March 4, 2009 @7:44:55 PM

Heaven is a better place with Bill there now!   Bill is much better off than us left here on Earth.   Dadgum I'm sad about it though!   He was one of the most positive and nicest Gentleman I've ever met.  

Milliesjig Says:
Monday, March 30, 2009 @6:37:03 AM

I read your blog this morning Bill.  You were brave and ran your race well.  Now as the rest of us still face this wicked world you have enternal life with the Savior.  Seeing Jesus everyday!  Although many are heart broke and are sadden, you would not come back to this world as Heaven is now your home. You truly know the meaning of  no more pain and suffering,eternal happiness.  We must all face death one day.  My wish is to face it as open and brave as you did. Although I never knew you know this.  Reading your blog this morning gave me peace and strength.  Thank you Bill.  Now keep pickin on that banjo of gold.

frailin Says:
Monday, July 27, 2009 @7:54:06 PM

Bill, now you can see just how proud I am of you. 

Studebaker Hawk Says:
Saturday, November 7, 2009 @8:11:53 PM

I remember how I used to look forward to you posting the latest pics of the space shuttle whenever it was launched at the Cape. Great pics.

You'll never read this, Bill, but if a family member of yours does, know that I (we) miss you, and the memory of you will continue to live with us for a very long time. Peace to you forever, friend.

Studebaker Hawk Says:
Saturday, November 7, 2009 @8:13:09 PM

I remember how I used to look forward to you posting the latest pics of the space shuttle whenever it was launched at the Cape. Great pics.

You'll never read this, Bill, but if a family member of yours does, know that I (we) miss you, and the memory of you will continue to live with us for a very long time. Peace to you forever, friend.

Ronnie Says:
Friday, May 21, 2010 @11:09:25 PM

Sorry we never got to meet! I am sure you now have a place in the Heavenly Band!

banjomikey Says:
Sunday, February 13, 2011 @4:35:57 AM

Wow Bill, you define strength and grace my man! You have inspired many here!

PickerPete Says:
Thursday, May 30, 2013 @7:33:41 PM

Just finished a couple hours of playing Bill's Stelling. He sold it to me just before he passed and I was honored to play Amazing Grace on it at his funeral. It is a true treasure as was Bill. It will be a great day when some day I see Bill again in the presence of the Lord.
Pete Costello

Stu D Baker-Hawk Says:
Wednesday, February 10, 2016 @8:59:43 PM

It's February 2016 and I still think of you often, Bill. I've been here at the Hangout in various guises since 2003 and I can say without reservation that your absence is felt by a great many of us. I remember how you would post photos here every time a space shuttle would launch (the night launches were the best!). I truly do pray you are at peace, Bill, but I KNOW you are because of your love for our Lord. May God Almighty keep you in His protection, and may you enjoy the rest and rewards of the Heavenly realm which you so richly deserve.

--Dean Lungu (aka Nick Danger; aka Studebaker Hawk; aka oldbanjoman)

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