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Interviewing Death

Monday, July 12, 2010

Recently, a friend asked me about my time in Korea.

He is about the same age and was in Korea in the 1960's. So I couldn't have been in the Korean War? Right? And was I letting others think that? Other combat veterans? Disabled American Veterans?

I explained I have never tried to hide the fact that I was in Korea after the conflict, from early 1961 through late 1962. I was a journalist and photographer. That, and nothing more. No combat.

But, I began to examine the guilt I have always felt about that. 

My friend mentioned he never felt that guilt and knew many others who didn't. I think he might have been put off a little bit by my comment.

There are certainly some who do not feel guilt about not participating in actual combat. I apologize for that remark.

I do, however. 

Feel guilt.

And that's part of the baggage I carry around. It's one of the smaller boxes.

Baggage defines us, I think. It is neither good nor bad. It simply is what it is. And , believe me, I certainly have some larger crates dragging behind me. I think we need some of these things, for it delineates our character. Every crack, crevice, wart and smudge.

Now, granted, there is some junk we should be rid of. And only we who carry them know what those are.

My father begrudged his 4F status during WW2. It made him feel left out, in a way. Something less then a man.  He came from a large family with 6 brothers, and a brother-in-law; all who entered the service and fought. But it just wasn't that sense of alienation and the looks from people in town when he walked by (he had a bad heart and "bad teeth"). He also never got a chance to "start up" again after it was all over under the financial cover of the GI Bill. A lot of guys furthered their education and bought houses after the war.

He didn't. He had to do it all on his own. Call it pride or selfishness, but that bothered him a lot.

That has never been my problem. My problem is the hollowness of isolation and the ability to not be able to share experiences with others that have been through more then I will ever know.

I was a journalist. It would have been the thrill of a lifetime to have been able to be there in 'Nam and report what I saw.

To look death in the face and interview him. God. What a rush that would have been!  Even now, after all those years, I secretly yearn to be on the edge of battle and tell others about it through my own eyes. I can't state it any more clearly then that..

But, I was 18. I thought I would never die. And I know others did. Even photographers and reporters. It was pure self-delusion and self-absorption on my part.

And, if I had wanted to, I could have re-upped and asked for a transfer to South East Asia. But I had grown older in those few years. I talked to too many guys who had seen the elephant.

No.  Nothing shot over my head, except an occasional beer bottle from Ed, a drunken, drafted writer from the Chicago-Sun Times.

Boy. Now there was a guy who was pissed!

I wandered into North Korea once. I was lucky. I'm still here.

A lot of guys aren't, and I feel guilty.

Peace
George

 

 

 

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